Alright, so it was my first Celebrate Recovery meeting. First since the launch, since the last one I was waiting for it to start. Waiting for my nanny and kids to show up, and I never made it to that meeting. That was the evening God planned for my life to be turned, flipped upside down. My pastor gave a sermon, about faith. Used an analogy of having faith in a stool. You can stand next to a stool, lean on the stool, but your not expressing COMPLETE faith till you sit your fat butt on the stool. I tell you, I am laying on the stool, sleeping on the stool, headstand on the stool. So a week ago now, God's plan is to take my lil girl. OK, what now. So tonight, Karen and I went to Celebrate Recovery. Both of us for different reasons, she went because she knew, it was what she needed. I went because I loose my life without it. Celebrate Recovery allows me to stretch further into my recovery than ever before. Allows me to grow in my Recovery, my Sobriety, While growing with God. It cleans out my Junk, to allow God to work in me. Give me a chance to "Shut up and listen" I know that I am just scratching the surface, of this grieving thing. But I have faith in God and I know he is in control. I feel comfortable, with him in the driver seat. I know I have nothing, am nothing, can be nothing, with out Him and His plan. Anyone with a hurt, habit, hang up, get into a meeting. Celebrate Recovery people will love you unconditionally, and you will reach new heights. God knows, I need words to speak, I am suppose to give my testimony next tues. at 7pm at The Revolution Church in Holly Springs. Come, even if it is to just check out my testimony.
i love you, I thank you, and I am nothing with out you. Please bless me with strength for tomorrow and understanding of your will. Amen